So when it was looking like it was final that he was moving here. I was over joyed! But than these thoughts creeped into my head... what... what if....
I survived a loooong long distance relationship! now what? what if it fails now???
What if he isn't who I remembered him to be? Did I completely romanticize this? Is he just prince charming in my head but a jerk in real life?
What if we hate living together??
Since he's giving up his job, family, Hawaii, everything he's ever known his entire life to move here for me, what if he hates it and resents me?
What if I hate my life when he's here? I'm a party girl, I love the club, he doesn't! What if I loose myself and don't go out anymore! What if I loose my girlfriends? Is this really want I want? I love my life as is... but do really miss him. Can I find a balance?
I'm also a traveler! What if I can't just pick up and go during winter or summer break because he has a real job? It would be pretty messed up on my behalf if he moves here for me, and I leave him here alone for a month!
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