This may be a tad bit out of order. I have been journaling everything since the decision was made that he is going to move here for sure, but I didn't decide to actually post it online until a few days ago.
We came home vising my family for Christmas in New Jersey. It was a great trip, but pretty exhausting. Our flight landed late at night and I just wanted to pass out! I travel pretty regularly and have a great routine. Come home, stretch out across my comply queen size bed, enjoy my fuzzy blanket, my abundance of pillows, and just being in my bed. I deal with unpacking the next day. My boyfriend had another idea. Unpack! ughhh I was so tired. I just went to bed, well tried. We got in a minor fight and than we both got in bed. I was so annoyed with him. Everything he said was like nails on a chalkboard! Normally I'm pretty go with the flow, but with things like unpacking my motto is "why do today, what can be done tomorrow" and his is quite the contrary! I wished so hard to be in a long distance relationship once again. When he annoyed me I could just hang up. End of story, no more drama or stress. This was the first time since he got here, i wished he wasn't here. How do you go to sleep next to someone you can't stand? I guess some things are harder to adjust to then others, hopefully our next travel will have a smoother home coming.
I woke wondering wondering why this was such a big deal? How could I wish he wasn't here over something so stupid? I've sent all this time with my only desire being for him to be with me. Sometimes I confuse myself, but I can't help how I feel/felt.
Upon some contemplation of why this bothered me so much, I guess with all of the traumatic airport goodbyes I had to find something to look forward to... and that is my amazing bed!
Has anyone else had experiences like this?
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